TLDR; — It’s just damn, women are so hot that I don’t really care if they would have a dick or not. If Jessica Alba or Margot Robbie got naked in front of me and had a dick I would not give a fuck. My brain and dick see a completely naturally born female who just magically has grown a dick also. Porn has dudes that you have to put up with, accidentally see ass shots of, or close up on their face, eeew. Futa has sexy women only, so I like the close up of their ass in this case, and facial expressions, hearing their voices, etc, so yaaay. It’s woman on woman but + dick so I can vicariously feel like I’m the one fkng/getting my d sucked too.
I’ve never in my life been attracted to a dude, but I get why other dudes just can’t handle this not being gay or see it uncompromisingly in this way. The biological truth in real life not cartoons, now that I’m older to think about it, is that your either born male or female, and a dick is the product of being male in real life no matter what you look like (people born with legitimate biological anomalies aside). But some dudes like me have been conditioned through he tai to just see a female but with a dick even if it goes against objective truth. Are we gay in the sense that we like dudes, f - no. Are we gay in the sense that a dick is a male appendage and there’s no way around that, if I’m honest with myself, unfortunately yes.—
Longer Version - Wish this was a topic that was discussed more. As a straight male who likes Futa I’ve tried very hard to honestly self-analyze myself to get to the bottom of this.
Since before puberty I liked women, thought they were fkng gorgeous, and even had dreams about them. Never once in my life have I seen a dude and been sexually aroused. Never. I’m neutral to disgusted about men’s appearances.
I got into porn when I was about 12/13ish. Watched “regular” guy on girl ,girl on girl, or just girl alone porn. Just whatever had a hot girl in it naked, or whatever had a girl pleasing a dude so that I could pretend the dude was really me and enjoy. I also got into hentai along with regular porn. I had come across some futanari and didn’t think much of it, wasn’t against it, even could enjoy it if it came up, but it wasn’t a fetish. It was just like a kinky japanese lesbian scene for me, but with a strap on or something.
But one day around my later teenage years, maybe 15-16ish, 2 things made an impression on me. First I was looking at some random gifs, and one was a prank one where there is an attractive tan skinned female in a bathtub (not a cartoon) who slowly reveals her body out of the bubbles. Beautiful face, great tits, nice curvy body and then boom a dick Pops out. And one time when I was at a family members house alone at night using their computer, a shemale popup just appeared (wonder what they were watching?). Once again, it was what looked like complete thick natural females, as hard as that might be for you to believe, but with dicks.
I realized in both these occurrences I was turned on and it was attractive. Because I like good looking females (the image of one), and naked, and them having a penis didn’t bother me. In fact it was exciting because it I was shocked that I didn’t care, it was like they were so hot that it didn’t mattered they had a penis, it didn’t make them a dude in my mind cuz nothing else about them looked remotely like a dude, just like the futanari I had come across.
Around and before this same time the porn I watched started to include futanari. Mainly futanari on girl. But eventually I started to come across futanari+guy. Where they would fuck a futanari or even suck them off. And I asked myself, if the hottest girl I knew or had a crush on had a penis would I care, if she asked me to suck it would I do it. And I thought, yeah I would, she’s so hot anything on her body I’d be happy to work with. Sound fkd up?I understand if so.
And there’s the psychology, or my psychology, imo, behind liking and accepting futa although not liking dudes in the slightest.
— However, what you watch in porn...you eventually want to do in real life....(rip furries lmao and people into those fkng crazy impossible fetishes I see in hentai like giantess or tentacle fetishes )—
See genuinely liking females and females alone of course led me to really wonder how I got to like futanari and why. One day I realized, that now through all this exposure to futanari, That now a dick could turn me on (cue straight dudes vomiting, and I get it bro). Because in my mind, dicks were associated with hot/sexy women, not a disgusting masculine dude. Just like if you imagine tits, or a nice round ass, or a pussy or long silky straight hair or nicely done long painted finger nails, you all imagine it on an attractive female by default. Imagine any of these on a dude (like Arnold Schwarzenegger, let’s say, for dramatic effect) and you and me would instantly be turned off and these features would have no value and be useless.
So now, I realized, if I thought of a dick it would be attached to a super attractive female in my mind subconsciously, aka no problem. But if any dude or my friend or some gay guy were to ever get naked or whip out their dick in front of me I’d probably vomit, it jut changes the whole dynamic just like in the scenario worth Arnold Schearzenegger. So now, a drawn dick can turn me on. And on top of fantasizing about tits, women, pussy, etc I also now think about, and I almost shudder to say this, a nice dick.
This then led me to the question if I would watch and possibly like Shemales, tranny porn, etc. And I did. Now, no offense to them, but there are some disgusting looking Shemales out there. The word Tranny makes most people think of a dude in a wig, and some of these mofos is just that. Deep voice, stubble on their gdamnface, hairy legs and a wig. You gotta like what dudes look like to watch and like that. But some, and we all know this, if they didn’t tell you, you’d never believe or know they weren’t female.
Getting into Shemales and Shemale porn, at first, was just a way to live out the unrealistic fantasy, that a woman somehow magically grew a dick and now I could explore that and please her in that way. I think too, that when I was younger and less experienced/knowledgeable about the anatomy of a pussy, the thought of a girl having a penis was sort of...more understandable? I knew how one worked because I had one, and so I could totally blow her mind if given the chance and I’d be able to understand how she would be feeling through all of it.
I’ve been with a shemale, and I hope I don’t go to hell for this or if it’s
wrong to change and not influence anyone else to do it. But it was fucking awesome. I sucked her off and she came in my mouth and it was everything I thought it’d be. Just like the first time I ate a beautiful girl out and she wrapped her thighs around my head when she came and shook was everything I thought it’d be.
But of course, when I got older and questioned things more trying to be objective with myself. I put myself through looking at shemales “before” pics and its horrifying. They’re dudes, like they could be my fucking friends even. Like damn I could only imagine the pit of sheer disgusted shock I would feel if I got with a Shemale to fulfill my unrealistic hentai spawned fantasy to find out it was someone I knew from elementary school even one of my old best friends. Like one of my mates.
I still love females. Still wanna get married. Still wanna smash and meet girls (another thing I hope I can change about myself if it’s something I will go to hell for). But I still have a huge fetish for Shemales too. In fact it’s my sexual fantasy to have a threesome with a female and a she male (f it or even foursome with either2 girls 1 shemale or 2 shemales 1 girl).
So basically, my mind has been programmed to not see a dick as a masculine feature (in the same way I don’t see pussy as a masculine feature or associated with a man,) UNLESS I see on attached to a man. If it’s on a female (which yes, as I’ve said is actually impossible medical anomalies aside) it’s just a girl with a magic dick.